Doubts

A lot of times, many found themselves stuck in the middle of nowhere, and then ask ‘Am I really the person who I say I am?’, ‘Who am I really? What are my ambitions, dreams, and aspirations?’ Why is it that when we hear people doubting us we also doubt ourselves? And when we started doubting ourselves we loosen our tight grip on reality and succumb to the darkest eternity.

Nobody said that everything will be easy, no one knows what’s ahead. The road to cross and what’s at the end, and I swear, no one gets through all of this unscathed. Along the road to get accepted, we’ll meet people who we thought will become one of our supports, but during one of the darkest hours, they’ll all be gone, and all we can do is to just look up and gaze upon the stars asking to become someone else, or sometimes wish to become invisible and just fade in the background. Especially when we learned that since the very beginning they built you up just to tear you down. And all there’s left to do is cry.

Some people don't understand this. They don't understand the desperation, the need to be accepted, the desperate need to fit in. They don't understand the feeling of solitude and rejection, the agonizing feeling of being alone. They will never understand the feeling of crumbling and falling apart alone, with no one to come and help you pick yourself up. Because if they did, then they should’ve known…. They should’ve known how you cry yourself to sleep every night, how you get through the night without making deep cuts.

But all those things are just challenges to become stronger, to become tougher,  to become ready to face the real world, because strength is not measured by how built you are, but by how well you fought off your greatest enemy, the doubts within yourself. If people say you cannot become…, then by all means become who you want to become and those voices will be silenced. You don’t need to pay attention to those voices that create pain, or make you feel worthless. What they say is just their opinion. Even the experts commits mistake, so it’s up to you to choose whether to believe it or not. What you think is what counts.

Never doubt yourself or you may never do anything of significance. Face front and head towards what you wish to become, have a straight faith and never falter, just do what you have to do, and you will see what you’re real abilities are. Don’t drown in negativism, self-hate, and doubt, break free, fight, swim to stay afloat, and then soar through the heavens. Remember it doesn’t mean that because some hates you, everyone does, it doesn’t mean that when your ‘so-called friends’ is ganging up on you, you need to go with the flow.

                Go against the current, fight against the waves, go into the light and claim yourself, don’t get shackled on the words of those who are stuck in the poisonous mental prison of jealousy and self-doubt. Be who you are and do what you want, it doesn’t matter if people label you a hypocrite because you don’t fit in, in their definition of right. But things happen, and nothing is for sure, you just have to keep going, believing that one day, you’ll set out on a journey where you are already on top.